Daily Archives: October 6, 2005

Whew. Looks like we’re ok so far. Went to the doctor’s office this morning and heard a nice, strong heartbeat, loud and clear. I was so relieved I just about started bawling right there in the examination room. Stupid hormones. The whole episode, of course, makes me feel like a totally high maintenance, nervous-nelly first time mother … which I hate. I’m not used to feeling high maintenance! And I’m not normally easily spooked! But I see the bright red bleeding and it just freaks me right the hell out. Fortunately my doctor was very reassuring that I’d done the right thing by calling and coming in. Now I’m going to take some Tylenol for my pounding headache and watch Cagney and Lacey reruns until I fall asleep.

So, I’m bleeding. Not a lot, but I am. This is really scary. I had some spotting around week 8; it went away pretty quickly and the ultrasound I had right afterwards showed a fetus with a heartbeat and all … so I’m trying to tell myself that’s what’s happening again, and it will all be fine. It’s not working very well. Here are the reasons it could all be fine: 1) I’m not bleeding heavily, just lightly, and I’m not having intense cramps or anything; 2) I have a fibroid, and I hear sometimes those can cause spotting with no danger to the pregnancy; 3) I have an appointment with my OB/Gyn tomorrow morning, so I should know what’s going on, good or bad, at that point; 4) Once a heartbeat has been detected, the risk of miscarriage goes down by about 90%.

These are the things I keep telling myself. It’s probably fine, it’s probably fine.

I’ll keep you posted.